Being Myself Right Now

Lately I’ve been trying to figure out how to function as a new college graduate, which has caused some anxiety. Every time I would feel a bit of panic about the situation, I would plan and go on a bit of deep dive of job search and applications. It was semi productive, but it was really intermittent.
In my effort to take better care of my mental health, I’ve been trying to implement some changes to make a difference. Waking up today, I felt really proud of the small shift I’d been able to make in the last few days. I’ve taken the chance to wake up everyday at 5:30 am and really focus on getting ready for the day. I’ve been journaling and reading, basically just taking care of my mental state. As for physically, I’m not there yet. But the small shifts are the foundation to do more later. So I’m happy with it.
I’ve especially taken the time to really just acknowledge what I’m feeling. One of the things that I love is Kalyn Nicholson’s podcast and the most recent one is my favorite. It’s all about really acknowledging the feelings you have and letting you go. I think it’s probably one of the most helpful in terms of what to do when meditating.  Not only is her meditation guiding voice really soothing, but the method she uses is really helpful at assessing everything that is going on inside.
Visualization in mediation is really helpful for you to see but also for us to understand what is going on inside of us too. I’ve been spending so much time in my head about being too in my head that it’s been so difficult to really get things done. After doing this mediation today, I feel a lot more grounded.
Doing things that I love to do makes dealing with everything a lot easier. Not to mention, I don’t get mad every time I wake up in the morning at the fact that I have to spend another day at work. Sometimes it’s the little things that get you through. Although it doesn’t seem like it, just being ourselves can make things better.
When we look outside of ourselves, we don’t really pay attention to what’s going on within us. It’s no wonder I was getting anxious because the future (which is unknown) is not inside of me right now. Just trying to figure it all out is a bit like asking for more than you can handle.  Take a breath. Look at cute pictures of puppies. Watch stand up comedy. But be here now, it’s where we’re all supposed to be.

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