Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about social media. I was taken off of social media responsibilities at work and that was a huge sigh of relief. I didn’t like going in and posting. I didn’t like constantly feeling like the content I was posting was not good enough. Heck I don’t really post on my own social media accounts because I feel like I haven’t found a way to be authentic about it.
Like most people, I got caught up in trying to look a certain way on social media that I was getting so frustrated that my posts where not coming out the same way. What do you mean I don’t have an instagram aesthetic? How do I get one of those? I tried really hard for a while to start curating posts like it was my job and then… I stopped.
I really just took a minute to not post on social media and I don’t know that I’ll ever go back to the way I was. Especially because I started to see my life in a totally different way. I was jealous of the way everyone else’s life looked compared to mine.
Now more than ever we are bombarded with the constant pressure to stay in the loop and to be on the pulse of everything. Our thinking went from enjoying the moment to “doing it for the snap” or to validate that it actually happened.
When did we decide that it was better for others to see what we are doing than for us to have fun in the moment that we are in? Did we forget that after this, that moment is gone?
I forget. All the time. When I get home the first thing I want to do (other than run to my bathroom) is just sit and watch youtube videos. Yeah, they mainly help me destress and what not. But then I get sucked into it likew we all do and I spend hours staring at my phone when I could be spending time with my family. Or getting some exercise in. We complain so much about the time that we dont have but we are not willing to acknowledge the time we waste behind a screen.
All of this to say that I am going to take down my facebook page and more than likely migrate back onto my personal instagram. It’s not worth it any more. I promised myself that I would be 100% myself. So what does that say about me if I am constantly trying to post on social media when I rather be spending time writing for not only you but for me?